Blank January

Don’t be surprised kung wala ako post nung January. It’s neither hate nor lost. I just got stuck sa lahat ng ginagawa ko plus family emergency.

I just realized now, yun mga gusto ko na free time ginagawa dati like watching Jdramas, japanese movies, and even movies in mall or kahit sa 4K kong TV eh di ko na magawa lagi. hehe Suddenly, someone asked bakit di ako masaya.

I’m happy I have some things to turn to if I don’t really have anything to do. Kahit maliit na investment meron for some financial instruments at iba pa, pero siyempre I have goals at may mga gusto ko gawin, nawala na. Sacrifice ulit at for the coming months, dahil sa robust sales at naging foreman na din ako, anak ng tinapa, yun JLPT eh sa last part of the year ko na lang kukunin. Pero siyempre magaaral na ko mabuti early on. hahaha

Kaya, eto naghahabol na lang ako ng post at iniisip ko baka sa sobrang busy ko on the next months, eh pati blogging mabawasan na per month!!! Pero pipilitin ko ibalik. Diyos ko, 10 posts per month , di ko pa kaya?! hahahaha

Honestly, this year, one of my main goals is for bit by bit, achieve my happiness in this situation I have. As much I want to get away or be in a lonely place, eh I cannot with the moment. Mahirap at malabo at malamang, I hate writing this, but ako lang maasahan. Good thing, I’m doing this most of the time at my room. hehe Some of the stress eh nawawala kahit papano. I can’t believe this will be more stressful than taking irate callers, BPO client’s issues, or even team issues. These past working stress issues were none compared to this time. Alone, packed, depressed and sometimes, helpless.

Good thing, there is Jesus. There is God. I hope the spirit is with me everyday. hahaha I’m just looking forward with hope, faith and yes, love for myself.

Right now, isama mo pa ang maraming students pero eto nagsusulat ako habang yun school eh pathetic ata yun connection. hahaha Sana kasi Fibr na din sila. Unfortunately in Japan, budget cuts do happen as well in education. I don’t trust DSL any single bit anymore. hahaha

I really love writing. As I write my rant, yun feeling na bad trip ka or depressed, pumupunta sa mechanical keyboard. Malakas ang tunog pero malambot. Very good therapy. hehe

As I finish my piece about my absence last month, let me give something to ponder.

Proverbs 3:5-6

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.”

I hope he is now paving my path straight after all the trust I gave to him. That what’s keeping me moving. =P